Thursday, June 28, 2007

If I Went Away

With head lightly bowed and a prayer in our heart, can we see beyond the barrier where the vanished have gone? If I could sing a song designed to bring them home, or perhaps to take me there, what song would I sing? What words would hold the secret?
If I could sing a song to bring my father back, if I could lower my head and concentrate and discover something more than a thought or memory, or if I could touch his shoulder the way I did the evening he died and have him smile; what song would bring him home?
If I could go where he went and somehow come back, I would begin to pack. If I could go now, I would go. If I knew the words to the song that races across the dark and says 'come home', I would sing with all the voice I could find. I would sing today. With rain pelting my roof as I think, and thoughts of what was lost, I would sing with tears in my eyes and a catch in my throat, yet I would sing fully and with all I could find, if I could bring him home.
For the children that died young, I would sing the song.
For the peace seeking fallen soldiers, of any nationality, I would sing the song.
For the store clerk in the wrong place at the wrong time, I would search for the lyrics to bring them home.

Is there no song? No song I could sing that would change the path, and bring them back to their mothers, fathers and friends? Is there a song for my funeral, if I went away? Would you sing my song for me, if I left the words behind?

If I went away, what would I sing? Would I sing a song to bring you across to me?

Would you sing a song for me? Could we sing a song from either side that filled a universe of dark? Could we sing a song that moved us back and forth from what was, to what might be?

If I went away, would I find the words to sing for you? Would you sing for me?

If I Went Away?

7 comments:

Erica said...

You write absolutely beautifully!

Thanks!

Lynilu said...

Yes. But please don't. I'd miss you and these wonderful posts far too much. We need your song, here, now.

patti_cake said...

Yes I would sing for you Seven!

Enemy of the Republic said...

Don't go!

Lynilu said...

Have you gone? I'm singing! I'm singing!

kathi said...

Our hearts hold the words and the melodies, in the form of precious memories.

D~ said...

I actually thought you had gone... away... somewhere...
your blog disappeared and left no forwarding address.

I wish there was a song... for I would be singing it loud and strong. For you and for the person my heart yearns for the most.